Just writing my thoughts down

• Dec 5, 2023 @20:44 - Super pissed with this guy called Wilf Butler from mancunion. That guy stole my idea to write a one-piece on entrepreneurship. I asked him to write a piece on me on 22nd, and he replied to me yesterday saying he can't write because he's already written a piece. Fuck that guy. I will start my own thing and beat em.
• Dec 3, 2023 - "Sometimes it's better to ask for forgiveness than permission." this reminds me I should actually create a separate place to document my thoughts while I'm building something.
• Dec 2, 2023 @17:10 - I don't understand if I should transfer to Stanford/MIT? Like is it worth it because I'll have to build connections again from scratch. It's not like I've built a fuck ton of connections here. The cost is aonther thing. I really don't to be a financial burden for my parents. Hopefully my next startup can earn enough money to cover the tuition fees that way I will be morally, mentally free to make transfer decisions.
• Dec 2, 2023 @17:06 - I'm starting to take everything in a positive outlook. When I think of why am I studying accounting, i convince myself by saying that double-entry book keeping is an essential first principle to learn and I would't have bothered to learn it if I wasn't studying it. Although a part of me begs the question does everything truly happen for good? Or are there decisions that I could've made which would have put me in a better position. Only time will tell.
• Dec 1, 2023 - https://www.panmacmillan.com/blogs/science-fiction-and-fantasy/best-new-science-fiction-books Will check this website later when I am looking to read sci-fi books of 2023.
• Nov 30, 2023 @20:44 - "Work so hard that your idols become your rivals." This quote is goiung to stick in mind forever now.
  
  

• Nov 30, 2023 @20:38 - Found a really good website to bookmark my books.
• Nov 30, 2023 @20:16 - Was browsing the books recomened by Naval and Elon and came across an old Elon musk tweet about socialists. It's very f true. They're pessimistic af, depressing as hell, attend expensive college yes but aren't wealthy (belong to lower classes.) E does not have a nice heart simply bec he's broke he feels the world shouldn't have wealthy people. Josh is openly a socialist and is the most pessimistic person I've ever met but contrary to E he is kind and has a nice heart. I hope not all socialists are like this but I'm not sure.

  Those who proclaim themselves “socialists” are usually depressing, have no sense of humor & attended an expensive college. Fate loves irony.

  — Elon Musk (@elonmusk) June 15, 2018

• Nov 30, 2023 @19:01 - When I go back home, I will try to cook my own snacks (meats, chicken, etc) now that I have understood what to have. Focus on gym and boxing. Learn the piano. Play COD titles. Have grapes and oranges. Try to digest banana and apples.
• Nov 30, 2023 - Stayed up all night till 5. Missed breakfast. Adding to my midnight intsrusive thoughts, evil in singulairty is stronger than good and goodness in unity is stronger than evil. Most people don't understand this. I give the world a good 100 years before we descend into a dystopia. Andth eprocess has already begun since 2020. The only way to escape it is to accumulate wealth, hoarde power and ascned into the popularity sphere to the top. Even if they choose the right leaders today, the virus has already entered and began spreading. The only thing you can do with a great leader is slow down the extinction of civilization but you can't reverse it anymore. What happedned to the Indian subcontinent 1000 years ago is happpening to the west oday.
• Nov 30, 2023 - It's midnight. The world's changing and I can feel it. We're transitioning not into a new generation but into a new civilization. Just watched Elon say go f yourself to his advertisers. I've never seen him this agitated. I give the human civilization roughly 200 more years before smtg goes bust and I'll try to make the most out what's left right now.
  The current geopolitical issue is very sensitive. A single tweet brought Elon to his knees.
• Nov 27, 2023 - Before you go deep into anything, read an encyclopedia. Rocket Science, Artifical Intelligence, Physics anything. General knowledge is far superior to specific subject matter expertise in the beginning.
• Nov 23, 2023 - When I first bought injustice 2 back in 2016, I wondered "who would play such a boring game where 2 charcters just punched each other constantly." Today, I realized that people wo are sad and depressed with their life, in their darkest momment when they just feel like punching something play this game. Well that's why I am playing it atleast. My headaches don't seem to go and my health doesn't seem to heal. Thinking about this throws me down a dark sad thought loop.
• Nov 21, 2023 - "You become what you say you are." I don't recall who said this quote but lately it has been very applicable to me. When I say really encouraging things, I feel joyous while when I jokingly say partial negatives, they rack up like a huge stack and come crashing down on me.
  
  I am also trying to figure out how to really manage all these tasks that I have.
• Nov 20, 2023 - It's midnight so technically 21st. If I eat something GF like cornflakes I can stay up all night and do something productive.
• Nov 13, 2023 - I have always been feeling hungry at night after dinner. This made me question why? If I'm having dinner, technically the food should be fully digested in about 3-4 hours which should further supply energy into my body for the rest of the night. Yet I've seen myself go out and buy these god awful ultra processed food (which I must avoid.)
  
  One solution I think I found to this is to drink water when I am feeling hungry and practice mindful mediatation before bed and soon after waking up th e next for atleast a couple months. This should help me build my focus back while at the same time promoting a healthy digestive system.
  Talked to this guy in the morning about how I feel like I lost my focus because I can't enjoy playing strategy games. He pointed out that I do like chess so it definetely isn't a focus problem. I might just not enjoy the genre of strategy games. I feel he's onto something here.
• Nov 12, 2023 - Just realized I always have music playing in my room. When you play music in the speakers and go down to do some work it helps. Now there's an interesting caveat I figured. Music in the background doesn't hinder your work if the work you're doing isn't rewiring your brain (put simply learning new things.) Now I haven't explicitly tried that out but I'd assume that you can't have music playing while learning something completely new. However, if its something that doesn't need to be stored in the brain's equivalent of ROM and just needs to run in your brain's RAM, its alrigt to have music playing while you work on it.
• Nov 7, 2023 - I think I need to incorporate the constrained choice optimization to solve many of my daily problems. For example, one big problem that I face currently is the fact that I have hundreds of books that I am genuinely interested to read but get overwhelemed every time I think about it. One way to solve this problem would be to create an algorithm that first sorts the books in ascending order of the number of pages. It then scans the contents page to look for the key chapters and identitify if there's any pre-requisites that I am not aware of. Then based on the level of difficilty it would sort the books again in lower to higher order of preferrence.
• Nov 5, 2023 - I have fallen sick roughly every week now. Most other people I know would just cry about it stating that "they want to go home." But I am built different. I know living alone comes with it's own challenges and I am ready to face it because I chose to push myself outside my comfort zone and embrace hardness. I admit that my immunity isn't the best, my stomach can't handle 90% of the food other people it (although I have a theory for it: maybe my stomach cells are like an overprotective gf who wants the best for me so she does not allow me to have trash fast food, processed food and spicy food like the rest. Maybe by avoiding such food I am actually helping myself in the long run?) and I have intensely red eyes. Hopefully, things will get better and I'll sort it out.
• Nov 4, 2023 - Eventually no matter how crazy I find myself, I actually turn out to be right (not all the time in all situations) but in places outside my home. The other day, I consumed Jude's ice-cream and I started feeling sick. I knew they had something in it but people/myself didn't believe in it. The staff found out today that it actaully has milk in it.
• October 30, 2023 - Poker night. Lesson = don't take breaks. They make you lose. Just like Elon talked about it in both Walter Isaacson's and Ashlee's books about how breaks almost klled him, I find that everytime I take a break, I end up on the downward loop. I was winning the entire night in poker but that small 30 min break towards the end made me finish 3rd in the 10 player game we were playing. This was my first time playing poker and it took the entire night lol. We started right after dinner at 6:00 and ended up staying the whole night till 4am in the morning the next day.
• October 29, 2023 - Sunday again. But didn't wake up late. Woke up at 8 am. Played GTA V with my brother. As a kid, I was waiting for this day to finally come when I would play with my brother and I am living the moment right now.
  I had something else going on in my brain the past few days as well. Ever since I went to the enterprise day, and heard stories about the girl who doesn't have a parent and wants to work to earn, I feel like shit for arguing and saying negative things with my parents a few months back. Whether or not I learn anything in college, the pone thing I can already take away is that my respect for my parents and family has exponentially increased every minute. A few months back I would get triggerred if dad refused me anything. Now I am beginning to understand that instead of triggerring you need to find out ways to convince him instead of badmouthing. I am also beginning to understand that I am TRULY A CONTRARIAN. My views are totally diffferent from all the average folks everywhere. There have been plenty of instances and one quick thing I remember right now is that people keep consuimg awfully unhealthy food and alcohol "in moderation" thinking they will be fine. But, I don't believe in moderation and feel like you shouldn't consume it at all.
• October 27, 2023 - Used my problem solving skills to solve a personal prob. Currently, the neurons in my brain kick the dopamine levels up and I end up wanting to read in the presence of others aka outside my tiny room. Going all the way to the library is a total waste of time. Going to the study room a few blocks down is a mood killer. The common room below my floor is too cold almost freezing to study effectively. Kitchen seems like the perfect place I know this sounds absurd to you.) But the table is too dirty, slab is good but there were no high chairs here. So I went to the study room, lifted the high chairs and brought em over to Oaklands kitchen. The kitchen is cleaned every Monday and Thursday so Monday nights, Tuesday and Thurdsay nights in the kitchen are the best time to study.
  
  I lose control over my eating habits a lot. Every single time I buy some snacks (GF Nairn's biscuits and GF nakd fruit bars => I end up finsihing them in one go within a few minutes and I end up sick. This is another problem actually a big one that I need to solve.)
• OCtober 25, 2023 - Went to the Knights Enterprise day. Amazing experience. We were divided into groups and were required to present the case study of a company with struggling financials. Connected with a lot of great indivduals and experienced executives. I remember Elon Musk using such events to the maximum. For me I don't get how I'm supposed to stay connected with executives in the sense that what do I email them?
• October 24, 2023 - Had the Accelerate Me event at AMBS. Missed my dinner for this but was totally worth it. There's always something to learn whether or not they're "highly" successful/prestigious. There were four startups there and almost all of them had different stories.
  -> ArkCube was more calculated, they searched all the options and conducted effeicient market research. -> Fabrio (3D printing teach) taught me to just go ahead and do it even when you are not sure what to do. He was pretty clueless when he started and then figured his way as he went through. He also had co-founder leaving in between but kept pushing through. -> Specscart was started because of a personal problem he faced
• October 22, 2023 - Sunday woke up at 9. Scrolled through inspirational tiktok for like an hour before heading down for brunch. Sugar water is a great subsititue for coffee. Understood the AD/AS model in macroeconomics. Fine tuning my code for my website rn.
• October 21, 2023 - Saturday so woke up a bit late than usual. Although my alarm went off at 5:30, I was lying in my bed until 10 then went for brunch. Came back spent some time browsing the next book I would want to read.
  Learned there's this term called "Revenge Bedtime Procastination" which means that you stay up late at night without sleeping doing unporductive work even though you consicusly know that you should fall asleep otherwise you would feel lazy the next day.
  Got a whiteboard marker and started writing on my glass window pane in my room just like Zuck and Eduardo did in "The Social Network."
  I also invented my own term for procastination called "Psuedo-feeling of productivity Procastination" which I relate to a lot. You scroll through a lot of prodcutivty videos instead of trying to be productive. You keep trying to optimize your calendar instead of getting stuff. And more would indicate that you suffer from "Psuedo-feeling of productivity Procastination."
• October 20, 2023 - Went to my Sociology tutroial today and it was led by a guy who did Philosophy and has a deep knowledge of the intersection between Phil and Econ fucking loved it. I finally had the first hand experience of using the socratic method that Elon Musk always talks about and what it basically is that you keep questyioning over and over again (meaningfully ofc) until you land at a definite conclusion.
  For example, he started of with what child labour should be defined as. After a few rounds of questioning, I finally arrived at the conclusion stating any form of "forced" labour under "harmful" conditions/environment performed by children that have the body-mass ratio not fit enough to do the task.
  Had the desert at dinner and I am pretty sure it had gluten so now I have a bad headache. I seriously need to stop having that. I don't even know how I'm going to make it big with health problems in my life, but I'm gonna keep grinding. Also, how do these guys that have made it big genereate the sheer amount of self-control over everything?
• October 19, 2023 (night) - Had my first Hulme annual formals 23 edition. Perfect setting all of us dressed up in suits and I fucking loved it. I was the sexiest guy there no cap and all the guys and girls were constantly looking at me. Took multiple pictures and finally removed my insecurity and posted them on instagram. They actually look good. Major update: I have fallen in love with 80s music I don't even know why ever since coming to university over the past few weeks. I have also fallen in love with 90s video games. Defo in my retro era.
• October 19, 2023 - Is adulthood just boring? Not the biggest fan of living alone. Have to do my laundry, cook food, go to lectures, (I wish there was a catered residence near the uni.) I can't even have most of the food out there because I'm allergic to gluten and lactose. I know I shouldn't be ranting and that life does get better eventually but I'm obsessed with efficient time management. I feel like shit even if I waste a single second of time on a useless activity.
• October 18, 2023 - Stayed up all night and finetuned this website. Added new pages and updated prior information. Joined the management socitey in my uni and also got chosen as the student rep. Went to the student rep session today and honestly it was fun. Borrowed a bunch of finance books from the library and now I have a fuck ton of books I don't know how I am going to read. Had too many nakd fruit bars and my stomach kind hurts so had to chew an orbit to kill that feeling. Will probably use this as a journal/personal blog from now on.
  
  Printed a few pictures of famous entreporeneurs and stuck on my dorm room door. People are calling me crazy for that but I feel motivated even more.
  
  

Classes to look out for in Sem 2

1. Statistics 1 MATH11712

checklist for december holidays

1. Gym to get lean athletic
2. Learn to play piano
3. A sport - maybe tennis/volleyball
4. Drawing (sketching)

Life laws

1. When someone tells you no, use it as motivation not as demotivation. (B said)
2. Patience is virtue